August 6, 2007
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Life keeps taking it’s turns and I’m getting motion sick from it.I went to Cherokee in June and it was great. It had been such a long time since I had had anything to look forward to.
When I came back, I had my hysterectomy. That was a pretty quick physical recovery. My surgery was totally laparascopic so I was doing yard work after 6 days.Jim was put on Oxycontin for pain in about April and he spiraled into full addiction by the end of July. He wasn’t doctor-shopping or getting it on the streets: it was all prescription by the doctor who is in charge of his pain management. But it really took hold of him. So now he’s detoxing which is NOT fun for any of us much less him. He starts outpatient rehab today.
My life has felt nearly unbearable for the past two weeks. Too much this year. Just tooooo much. I’m putting one foot in front of the other and trying to stay out of hopelessness but it rises up to swallow me from time to time.
Some of you have been writing to check on me: Thank you. I wanted to let you know how I am.
I have to go for all of my cancer check ups this month but I expect good results. Bloodwork and MRIs to be done later this month. I do hate the post hysterectomy hot flashes. I can’t take any hormone replacement and they are really a pain in the butt!
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I have been wondering where you went. I am so sorry about all the health problems you’ve both been contending with this year. Oxycontin/codone is about as scary as it comes when you read about so many people getting hooked on it. I’m sorry Jim fell into that hole.
I hope you can find a way to breathe in and out and just find some peace. Take good care.
Lisa I understand you didn’ t post with all of your trials since June for you and before with the painkiller for Jim that is become an addiction .
I support you and there is a light at the end of the tunel .
love
Michel
Hi Darlin’! So glad to hear from you. My mom is addicted to Oyxcontin… they gave it to her a few years ago for her neuropathy (chronic and quite painful every day) so she’s hooked for life (which may not be long anyways after her ordeal with cancer reocurrance in April.) I actually found myself advocating them giving it back to her again, because she’d just as soon not be here without it. You just never know where life might take you, do you?
If I’d known you were here in NC, I might have tried to meet up with you for lunch or something. At any rate, I am glad you got to get away. I may have a hysterectomy on the horizon myself, and those hot flashes are exactly what I dread (I have one a night, as it is already, LOL!) My big ‘news’ for the summer was coming off of blood thinners. We are exciting chics, eh? I miss you. Give all your girls and their boys hugs for me. You are loved.
I also struggle with the post-hysterectomy, no HRT hot flash stuff. Mine are more that I can’t bear temps over 75°, which is impossible here in the summer! I found some OTC stuff that seems to help, but I still dream of living in Alaska … LOL.
Hope Jim gets through the addiction soon & easily — not a lot of fun! Keep on trudging away, it will get better!
Lisa, I am sorry for all the health problems that you are having. I pray that you will soon be doing much better.
My friend also became addicted to the pain killers and it did take him a while to overcome it. He did make it and wants no part of them again. He was having back pain, still does. The only thing that he will take now is Tylenol.
I will be thinking of you and hoping that you will reach a point where you will no longer be having health problems. I hope that for both of you.
You made it to Cherokee, I remember how important that is for you. YOu must have appreciated the visit so much. Always amazed that they keep prescribing the med even though they know how it affects the body. amazed. i like the flashes…..go figger’. -g
Saw you drove by my bloggie… I miss you. Guess what? I have a hysterectomy scheduled Oct. 2… I tell ya, midlife is full of surprises, ain’t it. I love you!
How are you , Lisa ?
Love
Michel
Gardening six days later is doing great! Even with hot flashes and I know how much those suck.
Hey Lisa, I haven’t been blogging for ages myself. Just got back to it and checked in on you. Sorry to hear you are having a tough time. Am thinking about you and wishing you through this time! Lots of love, Jack
How are you Lisa ?
Whatever I hope for you a good Christmas .
Love
Michel