September 29, 2005
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Ch-ch-ch-ch-CHANges
Jim is going back to work tomorrow for the company where he has worked for 27 years. It will be the first time back to work in 4 years. He has been on disability because of several back surgeries and then the heart surgery. We both feel kind of nervous and unsettled. Yes, it IS a good thing that he’s returning but it will be a huge change for us. We actually get along very well together with him home. A lot of women go crazy when their husbands are laid up and surely there have been times when I felt the loss of my personal space. But for the most part, we do very well inhabiting the same area. We have learned to take breaks from each other, ask for room and quiet, and have learned to respect one another.
One big toll that has been taken for me is a confusion in my surroundings and I have gotten more cluttered in the house than I ever have in my life. Sometimes I just can’t think straight and don’t put my things away. Other times, I just don’t have the energy to do it. Maybe Jim going back to work will result in a little sanity for me, knowing that we don’t have to struggle financially as hard. That’s a real energy drain; that worry always hanging over us.
So my schedule will be working my 2-3 shifts at the hospital per week, watching Chase on Wednesday and Friday, teaching gourd classes as I schedule them. AAHHH! Routine!! hmmm…..change is in the air for sure.
One thing that I’m looking forward to is a trip to Boise to see Sarah, Jake and Jim on the 11th. My dear friend and angel, DesertRose, has generously paid for tickets for us to all go together. Her two daughters live in Boise also. For those of you who know how eerie and parallel our lives are, is this at all surprising? Just last night, we were talking on the phone and she told me that she had bought a bead loom to do some bead work on. This is a first for her. I haven’t beaded in quite a while but on the same day, had pulled out an old loom-beading book; it was sitting right in front of me when we were talking. Cathy said, “that’s wierd”. I said, “not for us”.
Here’s to positive change!
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*stands and claps hands* YAY for you and Jim! Yea, I hear you… Byron and I get along well, but my house is STILL suffering from the 3 years he was home, 3 years ago!
Gah! Just today I was immobiliZed by the stuff. No, not surprised about you and Cathy, LOL! Glad you’re getting to go visit Sarah, Jakey & Jim… yes, Cathy, is so sweet to do that for you! 
Your world has turned all sorts of ways these past months… I am so glad he is able to go back to work and hopefully things will smooth out for you guys… Will be thinking about you both
I’m happy for you.
Don’t disregard your confusion and disorganization, sometimes a symptom of brewing depressive illness, common in spouses (usually wives) of people with heart disease. I hope the changes bring Hallmark Card level fulfillment and I love the cow face. Sincerely, your Xanga Pyschiatrist – Ken
Thanks, Ken. It’s true. Lots of depressive illness here.
Good luck to Jim ! Hope it goes smoothly for him
Lovely photo of the autumn colours !
I comme back from a 2 weeks break , Lisa . And I am happy to learn this good news . Yes this will be a positive change . No more worries .
And you have the perspective to go to see Sarah and her family soon . Marvellous .
I am really glad for both you .
Love
Michel
Wow. The day has approached huh?? How weird is it fo rboth of you to realize that dad will be working. I can vaguely remember the idea. myself. Its foggy but I can remember dad in his uniform. I hope the best for both of you. I pray that dad and you are given the strength to get into the swing of things. I pray for dad’s safety as well.
And it will be soooo weird for you to be alone huh!! It is very cool that you and dad can be together day in and out and not kill each other. People who cannot handle such a thing would be um, Grandma & Grandpa Coker. Grandpa is known for taking the motor home “sight seeing” by himself. Can you blame him!!!!!!
Anyways, I am very excited and cannot wait to see you and Frauntie! Bless her heart that she is paying for you!! This daughter and her family apprecaite it sooooooo very much!!
I love you mom and I will talk to you soon!
sarah
Maybe after jim starts bringing in extra money, you canget a cleaning lady. Wouldn’t that be nice? I fantasize about having one…I’m such a loser, haha. Have fun in boise!
Hope Jim had a good first day at work!
Beyotch….a cleaning lady!! Wow, I’d be living the life then…..
Yes here is to POSITIVE change!!!!!
I hope Jim is really enjoying the change.
Mommy, I am so glad that things are starting to look up. You deserve the best and I just want you to be happy! I love you so much!
Rinn0