August 30, 2005
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A couple of my new gourds for the upcoming Peddler's Fair:
It's really good to be back on Xanga.
I have had a want to go unconcious lately. Last month, I did something I haven't done in 20 years: took a Xanax. I took one and a whole Benadryl and went OUT for the night. I just couldn't deal with thinking anymore. Haven't done it since, though. I really have no urge to drink right now, either. I guess that's a good thing.
I mentioned the home birth with my young friend in my last blog. It was one of the best births that I have participated in out of the several hundred I have helped with. So this was in the back of my mind, still high from it, when I got called to the hospital last week for my first time back on the floor. It was the complete opposite of last monday's experience; the mom was a Spanish-speaking county patient. The doc and nurses treated them like cattle...no I take that back...I think veteranarians would be more caring. I hope that I made some little difference for her and her husband in treating them as valuable people and their baby as precious. But when I came home, I cried for quite a while. Jim and Robin said, "I'll give you a month doing this". We'll see.
My salvation may be that I work postpartum now, also, and help with breastfeeding and such. It may balance out some of what I have to endure. I was encouraged to find that one OB who made some real bad blunders while I worked with her has lost her licence. I was dreading working with that doctor again.
On a better note, I have been listening to some really great music and enjoying the approaching fall. Autumn is the time of year when I just feel goooood. The warmth of the light and the angle of the shadows makes me feel connected to the earth. Like I belong.
Blessings,
Lisa
Comments (9)
I did that, Benedryl and Valium.. after my brother died, I just needed to sleep - no dreams no thoughts.. just sleep.. I have been reading this book and it reminds me of you - EarthWalks... Jim Eneredy - I think I am spelling it wrong, but it was about re-connecting to the Earth while you walk... and for some reason, that made me think of you... I just started it so I will let you know if anything resonantes.
It is good to see you back here again - I've missed you
I adore your gourds. I really love the one with the paper relief/tiles on it on your site. and these ones, too. Wow.
Glad to hear you are finding balance. I love fall, too. Up here though, it is dreadfully short. Sadly.
What music?
Karos~ I'm listening to Tony Furtado. I've been in love with his music for the past two years. I'm on a binge with it right now!
Your gourds are pretty okay, too. *wink wink*
Hugs.
Those are SO beautiful. Is the Fair in AZ?
Kalli~
No the fair is near Yosemite. Thanks!!
The gourds are beautiful as usual , Lisa .
The Doctor and nurse ' s behavior with that spanish - speaking patient is not understandable and not humane . Difficult for me to understand that . Fortunatly you found a balance in your job with the postpartum .
You like fall , Lisa ? .Here in niorthen france we didn' t have a true summer . It always was a autumn weather . Weird !
You ask about roses . Yes like you I am a fan of the antique roses but unfortunatly I have not here in my garden .
Love
Micchel
Hey Lisa. Glad we are both back posting on Xanga. Missed you! It is so good that you were there to treat the spanish-speaking family with kindness. You bring relief. Thank you.
Love love love the gourds! In spite of everything life throws at you, those gourds exude inner joy. Take care.
Dear Lisa,
I want to thank you for stopping by WhenWordsCollide and leaving such a nice comment. I don't think I'll ever leave L.A. Love your gourds and artwork, and I notice you just started this blog after closing down another. A lot of people do that. Hope you get "inspried" to write more. It's always interesting to meet new people on Xanga.
Michael F. Nyiri, poet, philsopher, fool
Ah, it's always something... glad you had the kindness in you to share. I yub your (footed
) gourds. Is that silver around the top? I wanna see more, hehe! 
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